sad.

I dun wanna be superficial & lie to everyone saying that im feeling perfectly okay, it doesn't really matter whether or not im in the exco, i can still contribute & all those shit.

Because the fact is I was so hopeful, everyone assured me, everyone gave me the confidence. But maybe all these high hopes just made me feel much more disappointed when I din hear my name, & I will never hear. I was expecting words of congratulations at the end of the day, not faces of surprise or shock, words of console & encourgaging hugs (thanks jess & chungyan).

Well, thanks to all for voted for me. (THANKS KHEEXUAN:D) i noe my batchmates still love me as much as before. & that's all that matters (:

You will probably say it's okay, u can still contribute as a normal bandee. There's nothing wrong not being in the exco. We're one band blah blah blah. But come on, im still a normal human being, with feelings and all. So I have the right to feel disappointed and upset. I jus need an avenue to spill out my emotions.

I know I shouldn't let this affect me & my mugging spirit, but I think i'll just be lying to myself.

I was so looking forward to working with Rujun, i dunno why. I just feel that it was really be a fulfilling & fun experience for me. Probably I expected too much. Sharine gets along better with everyone, she probably would make a better wo than me.

So yea, section mwo?

Congrats to chungyan our newly elected SL :D we <3 you.

To NICHOLAS : WE HAVE CONFIDENCE IN U (:

<3hcband; <3 j1s'`07; <3 flutesection.

I've been holding my tears & emotions for too long alr ):

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