always.

27 April 2008

calling out for retail therapy!

I think Im blogging way too often than what I should haha. I should be studying for chem mock spa! :(

Today's a boring day because I had loads of work to do, considering that I spent the whole of yesterday sleeping. And yes, I feel very guilty still.

And now I feel like shopping, badly. So badly I went online shopping in the midst of studying chem. But I didn't get anything because all didn't seem nice lol. Maybe I'll go real shopping with my sister next week before she leaves (and dies) at cambodia hahahahaha.

tralalala.

26 April 2008

Nostalgic:(

This was 4 years ago, AMBience II. My best year in amb I guess, considering it was the last year with my fav batch of seniors :) The concert was sweet even though I must admit it wasn't a very significant one, but it was my first AMBience surely it's quite special right. And I thought the starting of the concert with Welcome was really cool :D

Just a month ago, we had AMBience VI, and this time is probably way more special than previous ones. Because this time we were playing in black attire, because it was at somewhere different. It feels totally sweet to be back playing with the familiar batchmates, familiar seniors and familiar conductor :)

I didn't know past concert videos were up on youtube until today. Maybe because I ain't really a great fan of youtube.

But watching those videos, watching us on stage, really put me to tears. It's amazing how much we've progressed through the years.

And Mrs Lim, she sang beautifully and we love her, both as a teacher in charge as well as our friend. She has always been so sweet to us but maybe sometimes we really take her for granted and assumes she's always there. And now she's leaving, then we realised how much we've missed her out:(

And ccb was playing the familiar Ross Roy tune outside band room ytd, which in a way, spoiled the song. It's a song which belongs to the amb family (:

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Rah, nothing except chem electrolysis tut done today.

AND I SLEPT ALOT.

It's the weekends again, and there are loads of work to be done. But at least it stops me from thinking too much. Anyway, prac ytd was pretty funn(nnyyyy).

Liuzhen sitting in front nothing better to do, so decided to capture funny shots like these with the cool frames in his phone. (<3 SE PHONES!)

Then Jess & I decided to have a shot too which didn't turn too bad, except with Yishan as the backdrop hahahaha :D

But I look disgustingly fat in this photo (I think I really am!)

Then dinner/supper at Kap, as usual. So horribly crowded, but it's friday night and there was nowhere else to go to. Ate and laughed (very badly!) because Sean and Rujun just cant stop gaying around and Jiawei being caught in the middle was funny too. hahah.

Reached home and just dropped dead on my bed zz

24 April 2008

kinda queer here and there,

I reached home at 4.40pm today and my mum was DAMN SURPRISED! Surprised in a good way that Im actually home before nightfall, but with an added tinge of sarcacism :x Not that I don't want to come home early cus Leng always drags his pracs till imba late zz Like on monday when we ended at 7 zzz But at least he was in a pretty good mood la, and he got things done :)

I've been feeling abit uptight about school and grades and block tests and prelims and A levels these few days. I wonder if everyone's feeling the same way.

Though ironically, I feel like having a late night mahjong/bridge session!

ahah i-ronic. weely and his stupid joke!

19 April 2008

If only things were a little bit better.

I dunno if I should blog or not, because most likely I'll just start blabbering about how lousy I've been feeling these few days and bore you readers to death or stg. Rah, sometimes Im really confused about what exactly is making me feel so upset all the time. I feel guilty for going out late because my dad said I've been gg out too much which explains my horrible block test results. Yet I feel stupid, lonely and frustrated when I stay at home. I feel like Im always stuck in some kind of dilemma and in the end just shuts myself away from the rest of the world. It makes me sick all the time.

And I really hate weekends for some reason. I know it's the only time when I'll actually get to sit down and get things down, but that's usually not the case. I miss my friends and company cus it makes me feel annoyed to face my parents for more than half a day. I always want to go out but doesn't get myself to in the end because Im afraid of not getting things done, but at the end of the day I still don't finish much even if I stayed at home.

And now Im contemplating about tmr's post ambience party, cus I haven got anything much done today and tmr's sunday alr.

But sometimes I don't even know why Im so busy even without huge commitments anywhere. Not like Im much involved in Capriccio prep other than practising cus im freaking hell not in the exco so I dun have to bother bout anything else. Nor am I really involved in amb alumni. Yea, and my dad's really against the alumni band thingy cus he feels like Im wasting my time there and that im just being kaypoh by going back. So I cant get myself very involved as well. So I dun what the hell is my freaking problem here.

I feel really stupid and inferior.

I had a convo with my sister that day.

Sis: I dun understand, others are teachers, Im also a teacher, why do I work so hard until I can hardly breathe while the rest just go home shake leg enjoy life.
Me: Ya, people study I also study, people get all As for blocks I get all S and Us.
Sis: Yah, I think we're just plain stupid.
Me: Yes, we were born stupid yet we want to achieve something in life. So we just stupidly work so so so hard while others enjoy life. If we were clever enough we'll just admit that we're stupid and happy happy go zi bei.

And my sister agrees.

Sigh.

17 April 2008

I feel annoyingly tired, yet disgustingly unproductive.

Something is seriously going wrong with my life now.

05 April 2008

Rainbow in the midst of the sky.

I feel happier today than any other day this week(: Even though band prac dragged till like close to 9pm today and we didn't have a dinner break or anything :/ Fri pracs are seriously gonna screw up my meal times then I can wave a big hello to all gastric problems :X

I told my parents bout my screwed up blocks after procrastinating for so long :( But im so glad my dad din blame me or anything because he's really the kind who cares loads about grades and all those shit zzzz But somehow I feel really guilty, like im really not performing well ): current status is like DES, wth zz

Anyway,

HC Band presents:
CAPRICCIO XXIV
30th May 08, Fri, 7.30pm
Victoria Concert Hall
Tickets at $10 :D

Please come support with pretty pink/yellow daisies or sunflowerssss ! ;D

03 April 2008

offering your console (:

Yea, back :D It's been some time since I last blogged. Abit too lazy and probably too upset to blog :x & I didn't even blog about AMBience :( It was a wonderful friday eveningg haha, Amanda if you're reading this, hello! We were GREAT emcees :D:D:D haha.

& thank you weeliang rujun n shengheng for coming plus tt pretty flower ((:

aiya this is boring I've nothing much to say. Here's stg interesting I kope from Sean's blog haha.

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